Friday, January 04, 2012
22:19 PM
am about to... galau :|
HAPPY NEW YEAR, EVERYONE!
2013, be positive, be productive! :)
Tahun baruan kemaren tidak ada yang spesial buatku, karena di hari terakhir 2012 saya harus melanglang buana seharian, sampe rumah capek, tertidur pulas, besoknya udah 2013. Flat, isn't it?
Even though I'm not doing party or something for welcoming the new year eve, it doesn't mean I have no new hope new goals for this year. One day, I found on my Twitter timeline, It stated: "Don't set goals, set focus." Hmm, you're right.
Too much wishes, too much goals will not bring you to the straight line. An old man said to me, "If you have a dream, choose the right way to hold your dream. If in the middle of the road you found another way to come, then your dream won't remain the same." Yea, I agreed with his statement.
Now I don't set goals this year. But I set;
"What am I supposed to do to reach my final goal in this years, graduate from this university."
Yap! All I want is being success in my academic thingie. Let's finish it. Let's work, I need to help my mom.
And, now I'm here about to confuse with my own decision. I found an interesting scholarship offered. It's coming from Korean Government for having student exchange program there. Korea, I really want to be there to the fullest! But then it will extend my undergraduate study perhaps. I have to sacrifice my time, my work, my study path here, my family time, my fieldwork and etc. Well, you know that feeling, that big dilemma on me. When you really want something, obsessed maybe, but in the other side you don't want to sacrifice anything.
Saya tahu saya bukan seseorang yg gigih dengan mimpi saya, tapi bukan berati saya pecundang. Bukan berati saya tidak punya mimpi sama sekali. Saya punya, banyak malah, tapi banyak hal yang harus dipertimbangkan. Iya, saya juga tahu terlalu banyak pertimbangan tidak akan membuat seseorang maju. Tapi jika pertimbangan saya soal Ibu dan adik-adikku, maka semuanya tidak lagi sama. Hal ini yang membuat saya selalu kembali menapak tanah jika sudah bermimpi terlalu jauh. Saya tidak boleh egois, ada yang lebih membutuhkan saya.
Mungkin mimpi saya tidak setinggi mimpi mereka. Tapi saya tahu diri, dengan keinginan yang ala kadarnya itu saya hanya perlu kerja keras, berusaha, berdoa. Tuhan tahu apa niat saya dibalik semua ini, hanya perlu meyakininya, dan saya yakin tuhan akan beri jalan untuk saya, untuk mimpi sederhana saya.
anyway, I couldn't find the information about the scholarship on Internet. Omo!
once I get, I'll share it. Promise ;)
Antykahfi
